Observing my life since the beginning of this year, I have noticed the highs and lows of my journey to ascend. I am currently in a state where its harder to stay positive. Just a few days ago I was joyful and achieving a bliss state when all of a sudden one of my deepest shadows comes up. When I run away from myself to not feel the pain but actually drawing more negativity in. I don't understand why I do this..it's like I somehow adopted that it's better to be in pain than to risk being happy and get hurt. I have big dreams and know I have a lot to offer the world if I can just believe in myself. My whole life since I child I have never felt good enough for anything.I always felt alone and scared of the world around me. Now I am trying to ascend but I feel like I can't tell what's illusion or real anymore. It's stressing me out so bad. :(
I am now going to pull a tarot for you guys and we will see what our guides say..
MASTER OF FLAMES (REVERSED)
So my intuition was telling me that this meant that we are masters of our reality and our drive in life. It might be hard to see for some people though, myself included. Also dealing with our shadows because if we are held back, like hooked into the past or anything negative will conflict with us maintain a higher frequency. So I'm going to try to stay in bliss and just keep love in my heart whenever stuff arises.
Lastly I would like to see if I can send energy to people through this chakra meditation I made. I think I could be an energy healer if I wanted. If you try this please let me know what you feel from it. :)
MUCH LOVE <3